When you find your strength, You can find your way...

You know that phrase, "You've got your whole life ahead of you."? That phrase scares the mess out of me. I used to have a plan. I wanted to go out into the world and conquer it. I wanted to be a surgeon, not just that, but a neurosurgeon. The elite and the best. Then I was all of a sudden there, in the real world, and my plan changed. I'm starting to realize now that God has my plan, He is my plan and that was hard to accept for a long time. I wanted to fight and burn my own trails, but one day I realized- you can't burn without fire and God is my fire. He's my hope. my rock, and my salvation. He's my everything. So that brings me to the scary part. Letting it go. Letting my ideas that I had created for my life for so long and whole-heartedly putting my trust in Him to guide me. I like to know things before they happen and I like to plan ahead so it's really hard to just accept the fact that I can't just google my future, I have to live it. In order to live it though, I have to trust in it. I have to trust myself. And I have to trust God. Right now, I have no idea what's in store for my life or what I'm going to do, but I do know that through faith, love, and understanding-I have someone to carry me when I fall. Dreams shatter and Hearts break, but then again, if I live my life fearing those things, well, I wouldn't be living at all. I live through Him and for HIm and am dedicating my life to serve Him. How I'm going to, well, that's a chapter I have gotten to yet...