Realization.

cue "This is your life" by Switchfoot
or "Days Like this" by Van Morrison


I used to think tht I was unbreakable, that I could do anything. That was foolish. Iam breakable and I have limits. I'm not saying that I don't believe in myself, I just realized that lately I've been putting my heart into believeing for others. I've spent my time motivating others while I've stood still. My brother's going to one of the best schools in the world. My best friend is leaving for a mission trip to Mexico next week, and the production company that i try to support is taking flight. All of these people inspire me. I have no regrets for my dedication because each of them deserves every bit of success that they have achieved. It's just time for me to find that same perseverance and that same drive. Somedays I just feel like I'm floating, drifting from one responsibility to another, without ever really grasping anything. I'm not sure what I'm going to do or where I'm going to go, but I do know I need to grasp something- my future. I need to believe in myself and not forget the encouragement from others. I have so many wonderful examples to aspire to and with strength from God, I'm starting to find that faith in myself again...



"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. It is yours."- Ayn Rand