I don't get upset. I don't have bad days. Usually. Usually, I'm that person that annoying person that never stops laughing and never shows vulnerability with emotions. Today was an exception. 361 days a year I am happy as a clam (i never get that phrase-are clams known to be happy?) and tend to see sunshine on the rainiest days. But today, despite the sun light shining through the clouds, i saw nothing. It was a hard, long day and not the way I would've liked for my last day of Spring Break to be. It was sad and lonely and I'm ready for it to be gone. There was one thing that was amazing today though. Friendship. This afternoon, at the peak of the mayhem, I went into the SGP chat. I hated that I interrupted conversation and went off topic about my own problems. I felt so bad, but then, then I knew why I had. I got so much support through everything today-from virtual hugs to blogs about cake, it was so needed and so unexpected. Receiving all the kind words made me cry for a different reason today, for gratitude. You guys who are reading this need to know what a blessing you have been to me everyday, but today, today you got me through it. I try to be strong, I do, and I usually am, but we all have our breaking points. We all have those moments and days where we've finally had enough and you quit fighting to stay okay and you breakdown for a while. It's in those times though, that people find you and hold out a hand to help you get up and back on your feet. Thank-you guys for helping me back up and for being the light on my rainy day...
"It's been a long day
And all I've got to say is make it strong
It's been a long day
And all I've got to say is I've been wrong..."
Aww, sorry to hear you had a rough day. Here's hoping that tomorrow is better for you :-). Anytime you need to talk, we're here for you!
ReplyDeleteNeera
I'm sorry you had a bad day. I hope everything works out better for you tomorrow. I'm sending you the biggest cake possible. We're here if you need us. (Especially if you join Skype) J/K. We got your back.
ReplyDeleteKim
oh ECS... I can relate in so many ways. I am the exact same way. Happy about 361 days a year but when I have a bad day... I have a BAD day.
ReplyDeleteAs you already read in my blog, I too am so grateful for the friends that I have found through SGP and I'm glad that I can be one of those friends for you.
You really are my East Coast Sister and its funny cause we've never technically "met". I truly believe that God has brought you and the rest of our SoGo family together for a reason.
and to echo what Neera said, anytime you need to talk, we are here for you!
To respond to your song...
*cue "You've got a friend in me" Randy Newman
-WCS
Sorry to hear you had a bad day Becca. Hang in there chick & take care! Hope today/tomorrow is a better day.
ReplyDeleteElise xx
Hey, there are a few songs that usually get me through rough stuff... you should check them out...
ReplyDelete"Anyway" - Martina McBride (country, but good)
"No Envy, No Fear" - Joshua Radin
"Once When I Was Little" - James Morrison (this one just gets me to thinking back to life being good... being a little kid and knowing that all was well in the world)
Listen... enjoy... ponder...Hope you have a better day!